So this was one of the worst weeks ever. Back to back bad news just ruined everything and put me in a tailspin and is making me re-evaluate a lot of things. Like what I really want to do and that really I don't want to feel so awful all the time. So see where this goes, but I'm not sure I want what I thought I wanted anymore. A person can only hit the wall so many times before realizing they're just being stupid even trying.